STOP READING MY LJ!!!!

you worry about all the things i say that will pis people off on the intenet....
1.all the people who read this are either on my side, or never! offended by this. they know me.

2.privacy is a wonderful thing. bathroom..bedroom...Internet...

3.you read everything else...gimme a break.


Everybody else...how's it goin?

i think due to the afore mentioned items...i will be relocating my lj...start looking in your friends lists soon...

Well...i'm going o be flavor flav for haloween...black and all. deal with it.

i' gunna get my homecomingbticket wedsnday...


people of the worl...febRuary...thanks.

i'm eating pizza

...it's good.

tommorow. we're all hangin out and trick or treating at my house...then tacos.

i need more pizza

Poop...thankn you.

i want to watch poltergeist...RIGHT NOW!!! *head spins*(wrong movie, i know)

van halen is nice.

sunday, i watched all 10 hours of the house marathon...and my eyes hurt.

so now i'm watching prisonbreak and house tonight.

there's a lot of people i hate., and my 2 hour today was well worth it.

son of a bitch...tv teenage angst is so not well portrayed...


good luck guys

The fall play lines are coming together nicely...kinda.
Everything is only moderately alright.
Homecoming should be good.
Jolie seems to be feeling a little better.
Tommorow! Rocky Horror at Asbury Lanes. Please go if you can...
The chick on grey's anatomy is fuckin psycho.
i hate atkinson.
I really like kate. i noticed during the week that everything she does puts me that much in a better mood.
I need a costume idea for haloween. something quick and breathable cause i'm playin in "Soul-Fish".
Something tells me that i could find myself trying to remake myself a million times over in the next year and a half.
I need to hang out with sara k. more.
If one is to loved and lost, and have that better than never loving at all...why does the sickness inbetween seem not worth it?

Metal rehersal was ok.

i'm leaving rocky rehersal at 6 to make play practice at 6:30.

OCTOBER 27TH! ASBURY LANES!...(you're all coming whether you like it or not)

My dad has been a lot cooler about shit lately.

I WANT A LOT OF COMMENTS DAMMIT!

sorry for stealing you're life thing colin, but you've used to many "kevin-esque" entries for me not to steal one "colin contemplates life" entry.

i'm getting better at guitar. i rule at writing riffs.

Manhattan nights are the shit...we need more because they make my soul happy...boobs too...make my soul happy...if i ad more boobs i'd shoot all of you.

chris...WHAT THE FUCK!...i quit for now...i can't take this...i care too much and you apparentyl have stopped giving a shit.

I've been contemplating life after highschool for a while...here's what i got.

School: GETTING THE FUCK OUT OF GATEWAY!...most likely going out west to oregon (because western schools LOVE the eastern applications), or finding a smaller college near peekskill so i can live with my grandparents or aunt suzzanne. It would be nice. If at all possibel, avoiding the whole "more than 4 years of college" or the "community college" thing.

Home: Seeing as i would like to stay close to my friends, i'll probably follow colin around, but if need be, i'll relocate the hays' to new york...most likely in peekskill, or most likely, finding a nice settlement in phila. And, depending on the result of school, there's a great chance of me moving to oregon or nyc. (or that town that shea stadium is in.)

Career: If i didn't say music, i'd have to shoot myself. Whether it be producing records, managing a band, making music, or the inevitable fallback plan, running a rockschool(and/or teaching in it). I'd like to start a good band, but finding the pieces will be harder than i predict.

Social life: I will be the life of any setting i fall into. Hopefully as outgoing as i am, i will meetlots of people and find some kind of security in being around my fellow musicians and landlords. Hopefully i can see colin and/or adrienne on a somewhat daily basis, but as long as we keep in tounch...i'll be ok.

Love Life: I will get married. How many times is unknown at this point. Ad if thee's any luck with the afore mentioned topics, it will be a prosperous marraige, and i will be uberdad!

In forsight, i'd like to keep my habitat, but my leaving this hellhole is inevitable, and i hope to find myself with all you fucks.

The rest of highschool...will be FUCKIN AMAZING!

Over the last week, (insert something meaningful).

The a-fore mentioned glass door explodes on impact...

...do not hit said door...dumbass.

The mets lost game 7...my soul weeps...and that is the least of my problems...

Wenonah Haunted trail saturday...GO!

I would like to see if i can create sparks between me and Kelly K. before homecoming...as to not totally waste our evenings in an emotionless rut of boredom.

"the breakup"...it sucked...vince vaughn is horrible.

Jennifer aniston...hot..but should never act again...(just pose nude)

i'm serious about my senior project being a Zappa tribute...(seing as Howard is head of the board and he's a zappahead...shouldn't be hard)

I defended my allstar honour at rockschool today by winning the first "challenge" of the year.

um...is it weird that a good 1/8th of my day is spent thinking about other people's asses...and them nude...and sometimes me having sex with them...?(i'm not going to mention names...and no, colin is not one of them)

Anyone want sex???

Where is the world headed?

I can't go 1 day without a mjor dissappointment...

the only thing i want for col is for kathleen to recognize how in love he is with her...

the only thing i want for addie is (regretably) to realize that the rest of her life will be spent with an overabundantly joyous ed.

the only thing i want for ben...i'll add later cause he's watching me type...

gabe isn't as much of an asshole as i've always taken him for...not to mention he's always better than pat in my mind.

Mr. howard is indeed the shit.

I get to scare people at the wenonah haunted trail saturday after psat's...like i do ion school (but with a costume)

play is going well...now...for memorizing my lines...\

apparently there are 2 lakes in wenonah...news to me.

fuckin...people.

wee for homecoming???

haloween will be the shit...and we're all calling out sick the next day at school...because we're watching scary movies until 3 in the morning...mwuahahaha.

I like kate. i don't think she'll ever realize how much....













lol...colin just said intercoarse...it's still funny...


gtg... fuck people (again)

So everyone in my chemistry is incompitant...or however you spell it.

I got moved away frm kate...and next to amanda walton in algebra...

you all suck...except for people reading this...

not to mention the rest of my day wasn't awesome...not too bad...but not awesome.

mr. howard is the shit.

i have a date to the homecoming dance...Kelly Karavalis...(uberhot...ubercool)

YEAH!...fuck Q102.(crap)

seinfeld is ok...

I'm way too fuckin tired for any of this shit.

so 3 people...on 3 seperat occasions told mr. pridy that they want me off the acdec team...fuck them.

if i find out who they are before them come talk to me personally...it won't be pretty.

Santa clause can't make me happy now.

i need a goo date to homecoming...the pimp idea may work...but i get no fulfillment from it.

jones soda is good...

I got a caraceture from howard...it's me holding a bloody axe in a "jesus loves me" t-shirt.

tommorow is sunday. i'd like to hang with addie and colin cause they make me feel good. (not saying that the rest of you don't, but especially them...and chris, when he actually fuckin listens to me)

long day...very long day...

i can't go much longer like this...

and i've started setting up the format and rules for the batle of the bands.
(will be awesome...and apposed to what i said last year...if need be is invited to compete.)
i'm planning on getting a "special guest" to play and act as judge to the first round. hope it works.

mets are losing the series 2-1...they'll come back. i have faith.

i can play the intro to bambtrack on guitar.

i need a cheeseburger and some pussy.

Bill Rooney IS the fucking man...

Chris is slowly falling back into favor...

Addie...can't get enough of ya.

Kate is going to homecoming with pat...Fuck people.

almost got kicked out of allstars cause paul is an asshole...fuck people.

um...i wanna stab you...if you're not the people reading this.(unless you're pat or paul gren...or even gooch)

talked to my dad...fuck people.

i need huge fuckin hugs tomorow...or somebody gets stabbed in the fucking eye-socket...

goodnight my mislead peers.

um...I HATE PAT FREUND...many of you feel the same...i applaud you.

Hi kate. You are a beautiful huan being.

I wanna see the prestige and school for scoundrels.

SAW 3!!!!...HELL YES!

My parents are the nicest jerks ever...

Allstars tommorow.

My nose is fucked up sick.

"manhattan nights"...the 2 year project has it's prologue written.

I want my cell phone back.

The strokes > The raconteurs

Fucksleep...i wanna stay awake forever.

I got cool underwear.

School is lame.

goodnight.

okay. here's the scoop.

I've been a little out of it and asshole-esque to some people thta i'd like to clear up here.

Gloria. I love you. I've found myself being distant from myself and everyone...i can't see us in a real relationship right now. There's feelings, but no apparent need for a relationship. I'll try and be ready and wait for somethiing here...but i can't garuntee anything right now. I love you.

Chris. I'm always an asshole...but dumping jess isn't a good move. Xty isn't exactly worth it. I wish you'd just start listening to em instead of going into a deniance flurry.

Everyone else. deal with it. i think my friend bill rooney put it best....

Dear everyone,

I love you. you rule.

Love, Kev

Well...today was ok.

Best of show went awesome (yet way too long for comfort)

Played with the guy from crash test dummies (the mmm mmm mmm song dudes) and george lynch of dokken (huge heavy metal band)

METAL TOMMOROW!!!

won a free t-shirt from 102.9 wmgk cause i know bands with colors in the names.

Chris, get over yourself. She was never the one and the more you drag this out into lame livejournal entries, the more brainpainingly annoying it gets.
Move the fuck on cause we know you can. we're behind you 100%...but stop thinkin with your lungs and get your dick and heart back into gear.

Addie- We fuckin rule. I know i say this like, every other entry and wheneve...but we all know it's true.

I have no clue how i feel about me and glor anymore. whatever happens happens. I'm not tying myself down to something tht's not going to work.

I dunked paul green today in the dunk tank ...really marked a new era.

Colin...you can drive. and that's all i have to say about that.

Veronica...what the fuck?...i have nothing to say to you for a while.

Jen jones..go back to wherevr you came from...(her dad's vagina)

Ben.Hey...look, the mets game os on...

the mood is lethargic because people are stupid, i rule and i have no fucking clue what i'm feeling right now.

...

It always bothers me...

the way people get depressed...

and someho wi fall for it myself time and time again...

You say something nice about someone, they usually say something nice back...

That's good and all but when it's all for show, the stage must get that much dimmer...

I try my best to like everyone, but there are some people that need to be treated like the bottom of your shoe in a cold and humid bog...

I beat pridy in chess today. (stalemate, but i played him into it, therefore more of a win for me. He'll even admit it)

...not like when the world turns and you're lying on your back, crushed by the infernal screams of a thousand bloody pondering minds... and when you gasp for air and the help you so expected from the ones you'd call your faith...and recieve the ghostly reply of a back turned in the wrong direction.

Revenge is sweet no matter who can prove otherwise.

It will be long and agonizing and when i'm through with all of you, you'll be begging me for mercy, and then more.

...because yo've all been jaded from the society that surrounds you.

laugh while you can because eventually it'll kill you.

i hope you're having a better day than i.

Now go fuck yourselves or tell me something useful.

So gloria can't come to the show sunday..."catch up day"...
I'd kind of like to have a serious relationship again, but hey, why go out when parents are angry?
It seems so meaningless, yet every time i try to think about something else, she is the apple of thought.
"Where'd i leave my damn pen!??!"-for example..."hmmm... i wonder what gloria does with her pens???"
I've often found myself deliberating the pros and cons of life in various situations.
"Do i want to go to college close? Far? Take a year off?""I wonder where gloria's going?"
I want my friend to be content. i want myself to be content. I'd like the assholes who always find a way to ruin a perfect situation to eat lead.
Something's just not right these days.
Kevin-esque entry...Makes you wonder if that's even a good thing. Does this entry mean that it will offend someone?
Will it hurt someone?
Will it just fuck up in general?
Will it just send Kevin deeper into the emotional quicksand of teenage angst that we all build for ourselves?
Will it almost never be serious and to the point, so that when it is serious and somewhat logical, you still get chuckles and blank reprocutions?
Will it grow up one day and look back on itself wishing that some things could be changed for the greater integrity of mankind, or even just the surrounding habitat?
Will it lie awake at night never wanting to fit in, and then always try to please the masses?
Will it never be decisive?
Can it ever be taken seriously? Or even just be overly content, so that when the next downward moment occurs, the low will be just that much higher?
Will it never find it's true calling because bright flashing lights stand in it's way?
I'd like to know.

Somehow i've never been so wierdly uncontent, angry and completely worn out as now.
I have so much to be thankful for and yet i yearn for more than i may ever achieve.

I want you guys to be there. And whenever i can, i'll be there for you...but you need to call...
i find myself dragging people into situations and out of situations. I call on them for favors, and when they reluctantly agree, they never ask for anything in return...i want to be there for you guys.

Chris...i have nothing to say but get over xty. I don't know how many times i warned you in the beginning that she probably wouldn't be the one and that we're all so young and fragile. Move on.
And if i ever asked you for anything, fuck it...just start listening to me more. I have a lot to say, and it's all for the better. I don't want to run your life, but everytime i help you out, i find myself writing somethng that is a foil of this entry, the forbidden emo entry. k?

Colin...i've never wanted anyone's acceptance more than yours. While i may just be the ridiculous asshole who holds all his knowledge from the world to get a few laughs, i always find myself weighing my friendship and comparing others to ours. I'm not quite as imcompetant as people may think, and even as you may think, which i hope is a little less than the rest of the known universe.

Sheryl...i doubt you're even reading this, but hi. I have this intuition that you hate me. As much as i don't really care, it'd be nice to not get a scowl everytime i see you. A nice "hi kevin" would do. I've never really held you in disreguard. So, Hi sheryl.

Ben...I had always underestimated you. You're one of my closer friends...I love your mom too.

Addie... we've lost base the last couple of weeks. I know i make fun of your music too much, but it's all for my own sense of false security. You're the closest person in exhistance to me. If i ever lose contact with you...consider me dead. I've never been connected on such i high level with anyone. Fuck the fat sex...in the future, i just want to be able to pick my phone, or look next door, or even across the old folks home, or even across the room and always be able to know that you're there and still a huge part of my life.

For those reading...if you're going to comment, make it mean something. I'm not in the mood for 1 sentence comments, or even jokes right now. I just want feedback on life as we know it. I love you guys, but now is not the best time to be talking to kev...Kevin Michael Hayes is here, and his souless existance will be here for a while. See you all Sunday.

any ideas that are good...gimme. I will give you credit if i use it. and it will be AMAZING!

Addie has a sinus infection...Get well soon...OR ELSE!?!

P-FUNK!

KILLING TIME TIL PLAY PRACTICE!

I had to write a paper on Plato...so instead of writing...i just slopped it on the page and said..."see example"

California is too damn big...i say we cut it into 2 parts...NorthCal, and Toodamnclosetoarizona

I met a kid named Sam Antha...i just laughed...

My friends are great...i can't get one of my best friends to listen to shit...and the other one won't tell me what the fuck is going on...so i stared at th stars and god just told me to shut the fuck up...

mets won the division tonight...that's one thing to be glad about.

Colin...i always forge how much of the shit you are.

mexican food is easy to make...gimme a cow, some corn, and some cheese...maybe 3 days to put em all together.

i wonder who's a bigger crack head...ozzy or george?


...geaorge...duh.

old people need to get te fuck out of florida...the heat is reserved for people who's skin wrinkles cause it's burned..not cause it's gettin sucked into their bones.

jews are cheap...but you think about all the rich jews and you think..."gimme your money...you ain't exactly usin it.

i'm not a racist, but white people in harlem need to die.

okay...maybe not die, but have the bullet wounds to prove they they deserve to live...

look at my bulletwounds.

soccer is stupid...why did we have to deffer from the can???

i think that dodgeball is just a lighter version of my house when my family wakes up..."hey jackass, get yo ass outta bed!" *thump*

the canterberry tales...i wonder what happened to the canerberry tales...i bet they just got a negative atitude and now they got a nickname.

someone asked me directions to westville lake...i said "fill your sink, colin"

"alright... you are the best person ever.

Despite stealing my calculator.

Luckily I'm enjoying The Good Earth and my multitude of Acdec papers."-Kate Perkins

^^^it's so nice to be appreciated. Kate, you're Awesome!

Goodnight my unobliging kommraden

yes...

In all my infamous glory, shreds of light seem to be spreading upon my body and making me float into the air like the savior i've always tried to be...

Auditions...horrible...in?...HELL YES! I reclaim my spot on Alpha and now start practices on thursdays within the next month (small problem w/ fall play...workable)

I have a real job at subway...yeah...

Gloria is AMAZING...not only is she an awesome person...SHE CAN REALLY PLAY DRUMS!!!

I am...Jacob Marley...*rolls across floor*...and i, am dead....That's right...lead role in a christmas carol...yeah.

I am the Scientific notation MASTER!!!...and my reign is unchallenged.

Probably be doing the Classic Metal Show next season...YEAH!

All reading are definately coming to freedom rock sept. 30 and oct. 1. And it will be time to kick out the jams...(pun intended)

Chris...you're past xty...come on...

I have the greatest friends in the universe...(now i just need Val Kilmer and a nuclear missile and i'm set.)

i have a headache...but overall...AMAZING WEEK!



....mm...chocolate milk...and pam's probably not wearing a bra...on second thought...neither is addie...

AND I"M TOTALLY WINNING THE UNDERWEAR BATTLE THIS SECOND!!!
*I made boxers that say "I BLEED IF YOU SHOOT ME IN THE BUTTHOLE"*

TRY and beat that ladies and gentlemen.

It's 10:17 and audition is in less than 2 hours...

I've been practicing most of the morning and i'm a sweaty mess.

it should go well today...

i'll take a shower...give it my best, nd hopefully get my spot back on alpha.

Then i'll proceed to the marching band competiton (cause jess' lj post said to go)...not to mention Gloria is there.

I saw gloria on thye bass drums last night and almost had an orgasm...SHE"S SO GOOD!...i thought to myself..."Man, she plays like me"

I have a blister on my right hand from totally destroying the 4th bass drum last night.

Hi veronica.

And now Pam knows about me wantin to drink out of her enormous bra at 3 in the morning a while back...damn, jokes over col.

jolie...why???...i'm not one to criticize people who don't need it, so i'll stop there.

i need a shower. and gloria here...possibly both at the same time...


pushing it???....i don't think so.lol

Well...off to practice more. Wish me luck.

AND DON"T WAKE ADDIE!...or i'll stab your face off...

-KH

The results are in and the part of Jacob Marley in the gateway's fall production of A christmas Carol goes to...MWUAH!!!!

for those of you who don't know any version of the tale except that of the muppets (very entertaining), Marley is the second largest role and is Basically the narrator/ tormentor of scrooge/ and oh yeah, OPENS THE FREAKIN PLAY!


Otherwise good day...i am now Kevin, Vanquisher of Howard!!!

Auditions saturday...now, possible sax solo piece...except i still kinda suck, i just know 21st century schizoid man.

my sports history class sucks...yay study hall w/ pridy 4th period.

other than that. i fare thee well in high tidings.